I am starting my day with a short meditation, or rather than calling it meditation, it is more of a sitting in silence.
I have also been ending my days with silent sitting.
And it has been interesting to watch how thoughts and emotions, created by the same thought, simply come and go. Like waves.
A few years ago I met Masterji here in Goa, an 85 year old man, an astrologer, sitting in a small room at the very fancy hotel Taj, a simple man. I came to him for the first time in despair. Maria Boox, our first teacher this season gave me his number (as far as I can remember). Astrology was never something that I really thought I would consult, although I was always interested in it. But that very first time a few years ago, I was in such bad mental and physical condition, and nothing seemed to give me peace of mind.
So I ended up with Masterji, and he began to guide me with the help of an astrological chart. Masterji has seen a lot, met many people and besides having a specific and very special connection with the stars, he is a truly wise man.
I went back to him one month ago as well… Referring to life in this specific moment, he told me: ‘Karolina, sit in silence and observe’. So this is what I have been trying to do. In the past month I paid Masterji many visits, not to talk about astrological charts: he has been the person who has with his stories, been guiding me through present life. And he is an amazing story teller. So much so that I will write more about Masterji in a later blog post.
I have been reading a lot lately, questioning life, I suppose this is what happens when you are facing a new life situation. You wonder what will happen now, what to do with the future, should I be here or should I be there. Then I remember Masterjis’ words, ‘sit in silence and observe’.
Sri Ramana Maharshi was an Indian enlightened man, he was nine years old when he went through a realisation and an awakening. He left his family and sat in silent meditation for many years at the holy mountain of Arunachala in Tirivanumalai, Tamil Nadu. Today this little village has become a hub for Adavaita Vedanta followers, and devotees of both Shiva and Sri Ramana Maharshi.
I was reading a conversation between Sri Ramana and one of his devotees about life and renunciation. Where the devotee is in two minds drawn between the worldly things and renunciation. He feels that there is no possibility to find a closeness to the universe without leaving both family and work. He feels that renunciation is the supreme means of breaking all the attachments.
Sri Ramana answers him – It might be so for one whose mind is already free from entanglements, but you have not grasped the deeper thought of renunciation: great souls who have: abandoned the life of the world, have done so not from aversion to family life but because of their large hearted and all- embracing love for mankind and all creatures. When you feel that equal love for all, when your heart is so expanded, you will not feel like giving up this or that, you will simply drop of from secular life, and you will feel that the whole world is your home. The life of action does not need to be renounced, if you meditate every day, you can carry on with your duties. If you meditate in the right manner, then the current of mind induced will continue to flow, even in the midst of your work. The same line as you take in your meditation will be expressed in your activities. As you go on you will find that the attitude toward people, events and objects will gradually change. Your actions will follow your meditation. A man should surrender the personal selfishness which binds him to the world, giving up the false self is true renunciation…..
These lines made me really think of how I am approaching daily life, and how I would like to approach situations which I face daily… As well the importance of the intention set in ones’ daily practice. And how important it is to always remain with that intention – throughout the day and throughout life. Bringing ones’ awareness to ones’ actions performed during every minute of the day, will make us more aware about different patterns in our behaviour. Both good and bad.
Rolf my teacher said the other day during a pranayama class :
“Every time we turn up to do our practice, remember we are a part of something bigger. It is not your practice, it is not a selfish act, instead, we are contributing to improve the collective vibration of the universe. When we sit down in contemplation, perhaps meditation will happen, and perhaps we will be able to feel how our limitations are dissolving and we become a part of the vibration. We realize that we are all the same, in different forms. The yogi sitting in the Himalayas is not looking out for enlightenment, he is not performing a selfish act. Enlightenment is a natural state of being. The yogi, with his practice is contributing to the collective oneness, improving the energy of the universe. When you start to think of your practice in this terms, perhaps it will give you a different meaning….perhaps not….”
These words also made me think of mine own approach to the practice, my state of being when I wake up, when I turn up for practice on my mat, when I perform my daily work. The deeper meaning of our practice…. today there is so much focus in the yoga world on asanas only. But what does the practice really mean to you?
So to finish of today’s blog post I wanted to share with you some words of Sri Ramana Maharshi, which he said to his mother after she came to see him in Arunachala. Keeping in mind that this is a mother seeking her young son, for the first time after many years, asking him to come back home.
” The ordainer controls the fate of the souls in accordance with their “parabdhakarma” ( destiny to be worked out in this life, resulting from the balance sheet of actions in his past lives)
Whatever is destined not to happen will not happen, try as you may. Whatever is destined to happen will happen, do what you can to prevent it. This is certain. The best course therefore is to remain silent”
You have to read the lines a few times, to really feel them…